Below you will find an excerpt from a blog written by a Father of a young lady (early 20′s) who in the last 2 years has spent more time in the hospital–at times near death–then time outside the hospital. In fact, in her life she has spent countless days in the hospital. Karis used to attend our church. I urge you to take a few minutes to read Karis’ perspective on God in the midst of all her difficulties.
I spent the morning today (Sunday) with Karis, in between the various interventions that had to be done. We had a precious time talking about Ephesians 5.1 “Be imitators of God, as His beloved children.” Two challenging paradigms! Having God as our standard, our rule of conduct, the measure of our thoughts. Oh, Lord! And to do that as a child who imitates his Daddy. With that simplicity, joy, abandon, wonder and absolute confidence that his Dad or Mom is the most incredible person who exists. Karis understands that much better than I do.
As we talked, I asked Karis what three attributes or characteristics of God most warmed her heart. “First,” she said, “he is trustworthy. He is the Great Strategist. He plans and cares about the most diverse details of my life; I wait in suspense to see what each moment of that plan is going to reveal. He has an abundance of goodness such that it is no problem to him to sacrifice something I consider immensely good and precious, knowing that he has something even better for me.” For me (David) to hear that after Karis spending 20 days in the ICU and 11 more in the hospital leaves me with tears in my eyes.
Secondly, Karis is really grateful that God is a God of suffering. He understands and participates in her suffering.
Thirdly, Karis marvels that God esteems her, looks at her as someone who has something to offer, something to do for Him. Even though that usefulness has to be expressed principally at this time through being in a bed or sitting in a chair in a small room, she is filled with wonder that God sees that as a context in which to use her. He values her and what she can do for him. She is amazed at his humility, descending to be by her side, to raise her up, care for her, use her. Loving. Caring. Giving of himself for her.
At that point I (David) understood better what Jesus meant when he said “Unless you become like little children, you won’t be able to enter the Kingdom of heaven.” May I grow in my ability to be more childlike!